Thursday, July 29

I want to walk as a child of the light…

Child of the Light
Caitlyn many years ago, Father's day

Lenten Reflection Week 4, Day 7

Brothers and sisters:
You were once darkness,
but now you are light in the Lord.
Live as children of light,
for light produces every kind of goodness
and righteousness and truth.
Try to learn what is pleasing to the Lord.
Take no part in the fruitless works of darkness;
rather expose them, for it is shameful even to mention
the things done by them in secret;
but everything exposed by the light becomes visible,
for everything that becomes visible is light.
Therefore, it says:

"Awake, O sleeper,
and arise from the dead,
and Christ will give you light."

-Ephesians 5:8-14


It is quite ironic that this is the reflection for today.  The day we “spring forward” and literally must awaken early.  Except me.  I did not waken early.  I was too tired and welcomed the darkness because it was sustaining and healing my body.  Sometimes when our spiritual abbas and ammas, such as Paul, try to make a point, they are a little short sighted.

At the women’s prison in Gig Harbor, one of the training centers they have is a nursery.  The women learn how to grow flowers and make floral arrangements.  They are very good at it.  However, they never turn the lights off in prison.  The light is always on.  So their poinsettias never develop into the deep red color that we have come to expect.  The poinsettia, it seems, needs the darkness in order to incubate and develop its gift of color.  So maybe, just maybe, we shouldn’t fear the darkness but welcome it as it incubates our gifts.

I wonder what it would be like if we welcomed the darkness?


  • Wendy

    Welcoming the darkness, for me, is about acknowledging my Seasonal Affective Disorder and my inclination to hibernate until April in the NW. I so want to be awake and am so tired of sleeping, of being tired, but the more I fight it, the worse it gets. Time to welcome this darkest time of my soul, this seasonal affect that calls me to be just the seed in the cold soil.

    • I recently heard someone talking about depression and how they have moved into a movement of welcoming it rather than fearing it. It is difficult to enter the ambiguity of feelings this requires. But it is a beautiful thought you express. The energy that the seed conserves as it builds up to a bursting forth and a new life. It is its own resurrection of sorts. Take care of yourself.

  • The idea of growing in the darkness is an interesting, and hard one to grasp. Welcoming depression is something I have never thought would be healthy, but I suppose if you do it in the right way, one can grow from the experience. Good Reflection.

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