What price coronation?

Spirituality
A clean heart create for me, God; renew in me a steadfast spirit.Do not drive me from your presence, nor take from me your holy spirit.Restore my joy in your salvation; sustain in me a willing spirit.-from Psalm 51 I am caught by “restore my joy in your salvation.”  The psalmist is asking for a lot here, don’t you think?  Restored joy AND restored joy and faith in God’s salvation.  It begs the question, “What is God’s salvation?”  Sometimes I have doubts whether I’m Methodist enough or Christian enough to go through this entire ordination process.  I have no doubts about who I am and what I believe—my doubts are about whether the system can handle it and find a place for me.  If feels, sometimes, like compromise to stay within the system.  That concerns me. Coronation what price must be p

Forgiveness

Spirituality
"This is how you are to pray:Our Father who art in heaven,hallowed be thy name,thy Kingdom come,thy will be done,on earth as it is in heaven.Give us this day our daily bread;and forgive us our trespasses,as we forgive those who trespass against us;and lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil."If you forgive men their transgressions,your heavenly Father will forgive you.But if you do not forgive men,neither will your Father forgive your transgressions."-Matthew 6:7-15 Sometimes forgiveness is so hard.  I can get stuck on the same issue and say that I forgive and perhaps even mean it but the feeling of abandonment, betrayal, and anger soon returns.  Sometimes I just ask for the desire to forgive.  I know it is the spiritually and psychologically healthy thing to do
Beloved

Beloved

Spirituality
Beloved:I exhort the presbyters among you,as a fellow presbyter and witness to the sufferings of Christand one who has a share in the glory to be revealed.Tend the flock of God in your midst,overseeing not by constraint but willingly,as God would have it, not for shameful profit but eagerly.Do not lord it over those assigned to you,but be examples to the flock.And when the chief Shepherd is revealed,you will receive the unfading crown of glory.-1 Peter 5:1-4 Thoughts: Beloved, tend to the flock of God. I am loving this idea.  The flock of God seems such a unique way of expressing the idea.  The flock is other.  Something outside ourselves.  But the flock is God.  Which makes the flock bigger than simply something outside ourselves.  We are the flock.  We need to tend each other and ourselv