Keep sending those positive thoughts! Test results within one week. I can say that the problem is 99% not a big deal, just a major nuisance. But my medical life is full of major nuisances. Having Hashimoto's Disorder and Celiac Disease certainly qualify! But, in response to the 99% solution, the 1% crowds my mind occasionally.
Today, I choose music by The Byrds, poetry by Mary Karr, and sacred words from Gilda Radner along with scripture from several traditions. I have also been reading the devotional from Reconciling Ministries Network. Today, Marcus Briggs-Cloud writes:
"Western European languages have inherited sentence styles and thinking that regularly position two concepts as oppositional. Thus, language is the transmitter that reinforces these often times oppressive scenarios. As you engage your next conversation with another, think about how many times your language positions two concepts in opposition to each other- one is deemed good and the other, bad; how many times do we insist on an either-or articulation of a scenario?"
Marcus, part of the Traditional Indigenous Maskoke culture, then goes on to teach of envrkepv-huerv, meaning "one who stands in the middle." He is referring specifically to queer people who do not play in the gender binary...neither male nor female. But in his culture, the non-binary individuals are welcome and viewed as a gift.
I wonder what it would mean for us to truly let go of binaries? Good, bad. Male, female. In, out. And to live in the middle? It is a perfect concept for the sacred quote from Gilda Radner which is summarized thusly: Delicious Ambiguity.
Being ambiguous or not-known is often thought of as a negative, especially in the realm of faith. We have to know! You must know you are saved! You must know what God wants of you! There is no room for fence-sitting! But what if fence-sitting is sitting in the ambiguity of the Mystery? Waiting for Mary Karr's weightless hand to guide us (the poem for today)?
Even our spiritual greats thought that this absolute knowingness was the wrong way to go about it. St. Augustine said, "God is not what you imagine or what you think you understand. If you understand, you have failed." There is always mystery. And if we drop into the binaries of knowing, we are boxing people in. To this end, I often describe myself as an ambiguous Christian. Not because I don't trust the story, but I trust that my understanding of the story is incomplete.
Ambiguity is okay.
Let my heart rise up to meet mercy, my voice to meet compassion, my hands to meet action.
BIBO: Breath In, Breath Out--humm
What's Happening?! ?! sung by The Byrds, written by David Crosby
I don't know who you think you are
I don't know what you're doing here
I don't know what's going on here
I don't know how it's supposed to be
I, I don't have the vaguest notion
Whose it is or what it's all for
I don't know, I'm not cryin'
Laughin' mostly as you can see
Meditatio, by Mary Karr
In the back’s low hollow sometimes
a weightless hand guides me, gentle
pressure so I tack soft as a sailboat. (Go there)
Soften the space between your eyes (smudge
of eucalyptus), the third eye
opens. There’s the wide vermilion sky
that cradled us before birth,
and the sun pours its golden sap
to preserve me like His precious insect.
(c) Mary Karr (2009-10-13). Sinners Welcome.
Please bring your own sacred readings to the daily pattern. Those selected here are chosen from the Christian scripture cycle of daily readings, the Daily Lectionary, at commontexts.org, from the online Quran at clearquran.com and also at quran.com, and from the Daily Reading at dailyzen.com.
“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.” ― Gilda Radner
For the oppressed and weary
Especially for #blacklivesmatter and
for the LGBTQIAP community.
For signs of despair and violence,
for the killing of Honduran indigenous rights activist Berta Caceres
for North Korea leadership who desire nuclear readiness
for the increase, world-wide, of authoritarian leadership
for US victims of gun violence in the last 72 hours,
217 incidents, 51 killed, 99 injured
For signs of hope and peace,
for the Syrian truce holding
for the freeing of 2 Italian workers kidnapped in Libya
for the decision by Zimbabwe to take over all their diamond mines
for Pakistan halting the marriage between a 10-year-old-girl and a 14-year-old-boy
For France and Germany
For those who suffer, are homeless, or are sick
For those we love, those we hate and those we are indifferent to
For the transformation from ME to WE
Let peace prevail on earth.
So may it be.
Translation by Neil Douglas Klotz, Sufi
O Birther! Creator of the Cosmos,
Focus your light within us— make it useful:
Create your reign of unity now-
Your one desire then acts with ours,
as in all light, so in all forms.
Grant what we need each day in bread and insight.
Loose the cords of mistakes binding us,
as we release the strands we hold
of others’ guilt.
Don’t let surface things delude us,
But free us from what holds us back.
From you is born all ruling will,
the power and the life to do,
the song that beautifies all,
from age to age it renews.
Truly— power to these statements—
may they be the ground from which all
my actions grow: Amen.
May Peace Prevail on Earth. Amen. So mote it be.
"Amen" means "may it be so."
"May peace prevail on earth." is an addition inspired by Michael Dickel
BIBOLove is an addition attributed to the work of Soyinka Rahim, InterPlay practice, BIBOLove