So, I’m always tired. It doesn’t seem to matter how much sleep I get or don’t get, I just am. On the other end of that, I literally CANNOT fall asleep AT ALL unless I take melatonin. And I sleep soundly, as far as I am aware. I don’t wake up during the night, I don’t have nightmares, there’s nothing out of the ordinary. And yet, I’m always tired. I tried something new today. I got acupuncture done. I’ve always been too nervous to try it before, but decided to give it a go. It felt sort of weird. Wasn’t bad. Not painful. And I can’t actually tell if it helped at all with my physical body, but afterwards, I was talking with a friend, and they stopped me after a moment and said, “Why are you bouncing off the walls?” And it was sort of in this moment I realized how awake I felt, and how re
I don’t really feel like I get to rest that much, let alone have a day of rest. And hearing that coming from a jobless seventeen year old that only has school three days a week, that must seem silly and untrue. But it isn’t. I was lacking inspiration as to what to write today for this, and asked my mother for advice. Their response? What was it like having a day of rest today? But the thing is, I didn’t have a day of rest today. I was doing things, working on projects, trying to get stuff done. And sure, I don’t have a job, but I was actively doing things that I am not required to do at the moment if at all, and making progress on long-term projects and factors of life. I did a load of laundry, worked on my book, wrote this, worked on the concept I’m designing for an organization I’m a pa
I was thinking about the way that patterns form Windblown, with just a touch of magic And how dreams bump into each other Meld into each other Change each other I think it’s called the collective unconscious But does it matter? Patterns Walking about, making meaning, destroying the past while building it into our future I wonder about the patterns of letters How A always follows before B And about numbers The patterns of one-thousand The patterns of one-million The patterns of five Four Three Two One Go Go somewhere And rest a little while You’re a pattern of yourself And sometimes, we need to give up our duplicating to let go - Colin Jon d. What's your pattern? What's your pattern for rest? How does rest fall into your pattern? Also! Happy February!