Saturday, April 17

Author: Brian Kleber

33 year old transgender nonbinary United Methodist who is an addict in recovery. I live in the Pittsburgh, PA area.

Grateful in Recovery

Hello fellow readers! I am sorry that I'm just now getting to write this Gratitude Friday post nearly halfway through the day. Last night was a night where I really needed to listen to what my body was telling me it needed, which was as much sleep as I could get.So I'm sitting here at a local coffee shop sipping on a vanilla caramel macchiato which is my go-to drink at ANY coffee shop. I have finished my treatment program for the week which was very interesting and challenging to get through. Which is why I've chosen this week to write about being grateful in recovery. As I type this post I have been able to string together a total of 17 "Just For Today" without putting any mind or mood altering chemicals in me to deal with life on life's terms. My perspective while I was actively using w...

The Prodigal Beloved Comes Home

Hello everyone! It has been so very long since I've actually sat down to write on Beguine Again that as I sit down in my hotel room on my brand new laptop that it feels weird and almost foreign to be writing. As I have shared with all you wonderful folxs and our beloved readers - I struggle on an everyday basis with two very powerful demons.. several different mental health disorders and substance use disorder. Recently I suffered a setback in my substance use disorder recovery journey and I ended up in rehab yet again. The night I came home I fell into the cunning, baffling, and powerful grips of addiction again. I wish I could say I fought it as hard as I could. But quite honestly I didn't use any of the coping skills I had learned from the rooms of the 12 step fellowships, various ...

Recovery Isn’t A Race

Photo Credit: Healthy Place "Recovery isn't a race. You don't have to feel guilty if it takes you longer than you thought it would."Lately no matter how hard I've tried I feel like I'm at a stale mate when it comes to my recovery and my treatment. I feel guilty that I'm not further along than what I am. I forget that I've only got about 2 months and 3 weeks clean. I should be more gentle with myself and practice the self-care that I preach to all my friends going through difficult times.Recovery isn't all peaches and cream! It is in fact some of the hardest and most grueling work one person can undertake. Recently my mental health has taken a nose dive. My bipolar depression has decided to kick itself into overdrive... not even the mania portion either (i'm more equipped to deal with t...