Autumn’s Fog

I remember once
when we
            travelled
to the mountains
and back.

The vacation
of  a lifetime
            sitting
in the behemoth
RV that pulled
us along.

You were so
silly at seven
and I was so
smart at ten
that we could
have run the
world with
humor and
            grace.

Somewhere we
lost that when
            laughter
slowly ceased while
the leaves fell
calling you home.

We lost it as
            knowing
became unfathomable
in our lives strewn
upon the altar
of mother's death.

The faint echo
of laughter and
            joy
abandoned in
the fog.

We lost it
when we
            lost
     each
other.

This poem is inspired by my brother, Tim.  Our relationship devolved over the years as addiction and death gained supremacy.  Today is 9/13 of the year he died.  His anniversary would have been 9/15 (2001).  Deena and Benjamin, you are in my thoughts as you struggle with the loss of husband and father. 

Lately, I have been thinking of you, Tim.  And we continue to mourn you.  I mourn the brother that I lost 25 years ago when I left the house and abandoned you to a world of pain.  But I know, the cycle of life will bring us through fall and winter into the new life of spring and so, the cycle keeps going. 

Thank you to the Abbey of the Arts for providing the poetry prompt that got these thoughts flowing.

Categories: Spirituality

14 comments

  1. Amy said on September 13, 2010
    This is beautiful, Terri.
  2. a quiet walk said on September 13, 2010
    Beautiful Terri, prayers and Hugs.
  3. Abbey of the Arts said on September 13, 2010
    Terri, this poem is really exquisite, I get such a sense of your journey together and the lost of innocence. Thank you.
  4. Teresa said on December 12, 2010
    Such a beautiful and touching poem. It's obvious how much you care for and miss your brother despite the differences in life. Mine are here http://razzamadazzle.wordpress.com/2010/12/12/hobbies-passions-pastimes-entertainment/ and http://razzamadazzle.wordpress.com/2010/12/12/i-am/
  5. Mary Bach said on December 12, 2010
    Beautiful and moving poem. My sympathy.
  6. Giovanni Cucullo said on December 12, 2010
    Beautiful. Love is on your side.
  7. Jingle said on December 13, 2010
    So thrilled to see you in, lovely sentiments... well put. A+
  8. Jingle said on December 13, 2010
    peace and love, sorry he is gone. prayers... stay fit and be blessed. you rock!
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    Victoria Ceretto-Slotto said on December 13, 2010
    This is so moving, Teri. So much pain is caused by addiction. Victoria
  10. thingy said on December 13, 2010
    Oh gosh, this hits home. Beautiful and touching. Thanks for sharing.
  11. robin ellen lucas said on December 13, 2010
    "Somewhere we lost that when laughter slowly ceased while the leaves fell calling you home." i resonate with your story.. i have a brother who you remind me of here. peace to you.
  12. Flying Monkey said on December 13, 2010
    This is so moving, so sad and yet so beautiful. My heart goes out to you.
  13. booguloo said on December 13, 2010
    Sorry for your loss. It is good to remember.
  14. Madeleine said on December 14, 2010
    It is very beautiful and moving. A powerful piece.

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